Do you ever wish you could go back in time? I do. Lately I feel almost overcome with the desire to go back a few years, keeping the knowledge I have gained, and do many things differently. I have learned so much over the past several years and as such I feel as though my general stance on most things has changed. I suppose that is natural, with knowledge comes growth and change. Unfortunately for me it also comes with a bit of regret. Regret that I didn’t have some of this knowledge when we started our parenting journey nearly 5 years ago now. There are many things I would like to go back and change, adding and removing some influences and altering the way we allowed things to go.
There are still changes I feel should be made but for one reason or another haven’t made them. Maybe it is the ease of continuing down a path you are already on. It is much more difficult to break away and make your own path isn’t it? Maybe it is the resistance I am sure will come with these changes. Both from within and outside our small family. Maybe it is simply a lack of certainty as to how to go about making these changes or if they are really best for our family.
That’s the hard part about parenting (and life) though, there isn’t a user friendly guide giving you all the answers. There is no crystal ball showing you the future so you can be certain you are doing the right thing. All you can do is follow your heart and do what you feel is right…living securely in the knowledge that you made informed decisions with the best interest of your family and future in mind. It is with that thought in mind that we step forward into the next chapter of our lives, with purpose and intent. Join us...
Lovely reflective post Amanda. I think that you are right that looking back with more knowledge shows us where we could have done things differently. Life is a journey though, so as long as we are self-aware and reflective I think we will always be making changes here and there (at least I am). And I know there are things we would have done differently if we'd discovered Waldorf earlier for sure. Happily joining you to step forward with purpose and intent x
ReplyDeleteThank you very much. I am working quite hard at letting go of any regrets and remembering that change is good for the soul, and necessary for growth. It is sure to be a road full of surprises.
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ReplyDeleteI know how you feel. However you are lucky that you have figured things out now. I would love to go back and bring my kids up the Waldorf way. Unfortunately I didn't learn about it until mine were pretty much grown. We have always lived close to nature and for that I am thankful. I thing you are going a great job with your kids. Good luck in the future.
Thank you so much for your very kind words, they brought tears to my eyes as I read them tonight.
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